Sunday, September 25, 2011

Excuse my corniness...

Hi everyone,

Bear with me and my gushing but I had to share these pics. There are times when I’m overwhelmed and tired and grumpy and then I’m reminded of how lucky I am. Look at these faces. The centre of my universe. Excuse my corniness.

My handsome fellas

One day he's gonna grow up and leave me but for now I'm content with him falling asleep in his high chair


“Speedy Gonzales”

Hi friends,

The Boy’s nickname at daycare is “Speedy Gonzales.”  He is always on the go at full speed, except when he is sleeping.  There is no sitting around with him. Even mealtimes, when he’s strapped into his high chair are busy times. He’s babbling and saying a few words now so there is usually some type of “Conversation” going on.  He’s either asking for more or point to something with the expectation that I will explain what it is. I always need to be ready to entertain him.

Now that I’m in full swing as a working mom, I feel like I’m working two jobs. One during the day and another at night. I don’t have a lot of free time and I need tools that work for me. A slow computer does not.  I hate seeing that little hourglass on my screen. It just taunts me with its little song “wasting your time, wasting your time…” Of course that little song is in my head but still super annoying.

And as if the hourglass isn’t bad enough, my phone is starting to act up. It’s touch screen and sometime doesn’t respond to my finger swipe (that sounded dirty, I’m a 12 year old boy, I know). The screen stalls, I get this empty white screen and nothing. It really gets to me, especially if I’m trying to capture a video or picture of The Boy.  Not to mention trying to make a phone call. You would think a phone should let you actually phone someone right.  I want to throw the stupid thing at the wall sometimes.

Ok, rant over. Back to my original thought. Speed. I need my tools to work at the pace I set. That’s not too much to ask for right? My number one job is being a Mom, I need to get through all the “work” parts of that job so I can get to the “play” parts.  I want to effectively multi task so I can have fun with my son. I want to get to the giggles and the dancing and singing and the snuggles. If something slows me down, it gets thrown out the window (most times figuratively, sometimes literally). 

I refuse to give up my technology helpers but if they don’t cut it, they are out. You snooze you lose right? 

                            I never want to miss these moments...

How so you need with the devil’s time waster aka the evil little hourglass on your screen? Read my friends’ stories on the Intel Canada Facebook page at


Sunday, September 11, 2011

I survived week one of back to work but with tears, fears and cheers

Hi friends,

I did it. I survived my first official week back to work. Yes, it was a short work week but it still counts. The Boy is a trooper. He did so well.  We did not have to pick him up early, we did not get any emergency phone calls but there were some tears.
I cried when we dropped him and I headed off to work but I cried more when I picked him up. Tears of joy, I had missed him so much during the day. It was great to have someone deal with the diapers and the post-meal clean-ups but they also got the good stuff. I misses the cuddles, the smiles, the babbling and most of all hearing “Mom, Mama.” I miss the little stinker when I’m away from him.

It was tough juggling work and home though. Luckily, I did some planning and cooked a bunch of stuff on the weekend so dinnertime was not super stressful. I think The Boy gets too excited to eat properly. He’s distracted by toys and his friends so when we get home at the end of the day, he’s ready for a meal. He’s also riled up and ready to play with his toys so harnessing him into his high chair is challenging.  I have a laptop on the kitchen table and I had the inspired idea to create a playlist on the National Film Board website. I usually turn on one of his favourite movies and this distracts him enough for me to buckle him in and get his dinner ready. I know, I know…I’m using a screen to pacify my child but it’s either that or an hour of screaming and throwing things and no dinner. I would much prefer a little less stress at the end of the day.
I’m happy to go back to work. Some things really are like riding a bike. I missed the adult interaction. This is also a new job for me so I have the added anxiety of getting to know new people but it has been great so far. I don’t waste a minute with The Boy now and I feel less guilt about having a messy house because I prefer to play with him than clean. Giggling with him is a great stress reliever.

It is a tough job, being a working mom. I do have some indispensible tools though. Mainly my pc. I plan my meals, make and manage my family calendar and generally try to get organised with it. I use every available piece of technology I can get my hands on. After The Boy goes to bed, I still cyber stalk him with the Wi-Fi camera in his room. I’ve said it before and I still believe it, use it if you got it!
I don’t have to do the back to school routine yet but for me it was back to work. One day I will be joining those parents with their tears of joy and sadness at back to school time.

I even miss him rolling his eyes at me like this during the day. He makes up for it at bedtime.

How did you survive your first week back to school? See how my friends did at the Intel Canada Facebook Page. While you’re there, check out all the cool stuff happening on the Visibly Smart tour.


Friday, September 2, 2011

My first day back to work is around the corner...gulp!!!

Hi friends,

Today is my last official day on being off work before I return to the workforce. I’m not counting the weekend. I have been very lucky to have had 15 months at home with The Boy. I love that I had all this time with him. There were moments of absolute joy and moments where I wanted to pull out my hair but overall it was incredible.  I am looking forward to using the “non-mommy” parts of my brain again but terrified about being a working Mom.

I will miss being able to document The Boy as much as I want. I’m sure he will not miss having a camera in his face all the time. I almost feel guilty saying this but I’m glad to do something a little different after being of out an office environment for so long. I certainly did not see my maternity leave as a vacation as some people did. Being pregnant, having a baby and taking care of him are the hardest jobs I have ever had. It’s the one I loved the most too.

Now working Moms, share your secrets. How do you balance work and life? How do you keep organised? Give me some tips. So far, I’ve made up spreadsheets. Baby Daddy and I (i.e. I forcer him) to take a few minutes to create a meal plan. I create a shopping list based on this meal plan. We really stuck to it this week. I found it helpful for several reasons. We shopped just for what we need so we spent less and did not waste food. I also knew exactly what we were eating each day so it was easier to cook too. We also made healthier choices. I put my meal plan on the fridge so it was in my face.

The other thing I did to stay organized was to create a schedule for wake up/working out/daycare drop off and pickup. We are trying to get healthy so we scheduled time for both Baby Daddy and I to work out (Let’s see how long we will stick to that one).  I put this on a spreadsheet and put it on the fridge.

I do not think I would be able to try to organize my family without a PC. I’m a spreadsheet person and list person and I prefer a digital lists and calendars to a physical calendar. This way I “invite” Baby Daddy to all the events and it syncs with both our smartphones, which chime with helpful reminders. He has no excuse for missing anything now!

I have to pick out my first day outfit. What will I wear? I’m nervous. I hope they like me. I still have to get used to waking up early and getting back into a routine that takes me out of home for most of the day. The hardest part will be getting used to being away from The Boy all day. I know I will cry more than he does. He has a great time playing at daycare and flirting with the ladies. Mommy will always worry about him. I will miss seeing the smiles on that little face and the moments when he runs over to me for cuddles. How am I going to deal?

I'm going to miss getting this look during the day
I'm going to miss cuddles whenever I want
I'm even going to miss having to run after him all day